Am I really a blogger?

I am wondering this these days... Am I really a blogger?

I LOVE to read blogs. Every morning I open Google reader on my Kindle and scan the blogs that I follow. Then, during my mid-day breaks I scan them again. And, before bed I do it once again. So, apparently I like to read them.

But, it's hard to find time to write.

I think it's because I want to have a post that is "just so". That is SO like me. If I can't do something PERFECTLY I tend to run away from it and just not do it at all. It is hard for me to realize that small steps, even seemingly insignificant ones, contribute to an overall success.

Right now I'm in this stage with lots of areas of my life. Afraid I'm not succeeding because I see little change ~ or I should say little change in the measures I'm used to. So, I'm learning to shift my focus.

When I have a rough day with the kids school, it doesn't mean we are failing. It just means some days are hard and we try again tomorrow. Until the day I look back and can't believe what my kids have learned.

When I feel like my house might overtake me because it's a mess it doesn't mean I'm sloppy. It means I chose to spend time playing with my kids instead of cleaning like a maniac. And, then I do the dishes (again!) and sweep the floor (again) and somehow it's enough for now.

And, when I feel like there is no progress from these health changes I'm making it doesn't mean I'm not changing. Change is S.L.O.W. both the good ones and the bad ones. So, I keep choosing to exercise. I keep choosing to eat (mostly) real food. And I keep choosing to focus on one choice at a time and do the "next right thing".

So, I am accepting that not every post in this blog needs to be perfectly inspiring. And that is ok. It's the sum of the parts that make the whole.

Now, I have to go to Body Pump. It's the "next right thing" on my list today :)